Mind frame reflects outcome

'Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'

'That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said the cat.

' I don't much care where . . .' said Alice.

'Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the cat.

Alice in Wonderland,Lewis Carroll

I...

... am a fan of the disoriented.
for only they can create

WE ARE UNSURE, EVEN WHEN WE ARE VERY SURE

Our senses

fail us

on countless occasions,

yet

we

still manage

to pull through,

sure

of what we

are unsure of.

It's either confidence or otherwise

Being who I am;

I identify my cons,

I accept them,

and

I dont apologize for that.

Find U...

I'm the kind that if I were told,

I was taking a test,

I would flop it woefully,

but if I was just askd the same questions on a random day,

in a casual conversation,

I would scale it beyond distinction.

If i wer put up to a task of getting a lady at sme social gathering,

I wont know were to start from,

whether to ask her her mothers’ maiden name,

how many wives her late grand dad had,

or

if she simply liked cheese.

But,

if i wer to just be on my own wiv my closest pals crazying around and the lady be watching me 4rm afar,

without me knowing she were there,

even miss Nigeria would want my contact details.

If I wer askd to go to cultural center to kip a crowd blazing,

I would probably jump right into pockets,

but if I wer to be walking down my schools’ hallway,

and

mischievously I decided to tke a pik into the basketball court,

and

I noticed a team dismayed by their last opponent,

I could get them to start skippin as they sang classic cartoon theme songs,

or

get them so unconscious with lafta they couldn’t tell when they start eating their shoe laces…

But that’s just me…

WHO R U???

Discover yourself,

Only u can fix u.

Have principles;

genuine principles,

at all times be the person u discovered.

If u seem to lack them,

get attributes that people will remember you for before they remember the custom Beemer,

or

Mercedez u strolled in with.

Life isn’t short, relax.

Don’t be in a hurry,

but don’t delay also.

Think abou it.

Much Love, Tonye.

Heed these words

To all ye who think life is a battle,

...pls, pls, pls...

Dnt let the mundane and archaic mindset of our parents,

who experienced the world wars, the civil wars and the holocaust,

eat into ours.

Life is just filled with tasks,

if u dont work,

u cnt keep up when we dont keep up,

that instantaneous generated lie,

we tell ourselves,

that

"the world is unfair", comes up.

You have to realize that,

everything happens for a reason,

no others principles or laws can work perfectly with u.

Blaming something every time isnt the cure to a disasterous life.

Wat is,

is the sensitive reassesment of past actions.

Try as much as possible to hav a neutral side.

The world is so sensitive and is filled with ignorant people.
Take a good assessment before you take a side.

Don't be a converted christian or Muslim,

but a convinced christian or muslim.

Heed these words.

- Tonye

"I realized he was only human when..."

When I saw the topic "I realized he was only human when...", I laughed. I laughed because this was the exact heading I used when I was still compiling tit-bits of my life to tell a story.
My dad is a Nigerian, from Etche. He is huge, strong, agile, smart, handsome, rugged and would never be taken for granted or outsmarted. My mum died giving birth to my direct younger siblings, who happened to be twins. We were all left with our dad. He had to manage work and at the same time cater for us. When my mum was alive, he refused the services of a housemaid and my mums death did not seem to change that. He made sure we were always punctual to school, and picked up by his company's driver in due time, each day after school.
After some time of experiencing this hardship, he was supposed to get married to my step mum but masked men raided our house one day to the wedding day, and trashed everything. My dad still stood strong and tried to console my step mum. He immediately made alternative wedding plans. When they finally got married, they didn't have children for several years. That also did not wear him down, instead they paid more attention to us.
Few years after, my dad's businesses crumbled, we had to move to a small house. Everything was getting worse by the day, but he still stood his ground and rebuilt himself. My father seemed to be like a demi-god, a perfect man, at this point to me.
My step mum graciously got pregnant, and died during child birth, just like my mum. My father was shocked, but did not do anything. He did not speak or smile. He more or less became a ghost.
For months he would just sit and look into space. My heart went out to him, but I did not know how to help. I also had to take care of my younger twin siblings and other brother from my step mum.
One day, the babies started crying, so I ran up to their cradle, then I heard someone scream in pain from the direction of my dad's room. It sounded just like my dad. When I got to his room, i saw someone, sitting on the floor astride, while his massive body quaked with bitter sobs. It was my dad. He wept while I just stood there, glued to the floor.
Gently I sniffed into tears, then I realized he was only human when he cried like the twins.

- Tonye

A brief description of my past..and me.

ANYANWU TONYE is stacking up all his flaws and side burns,

for recycling...

every new minute xplains to me,

hw wrongly the last one was spent..

and

hw the ratio of input:output was 2:7.

I

have acknowledged all the trageic moments

and discoverd several different ways,

which I could have turnd them back into happy moments...

Wel it's pasd though, but its neva too late.

The only thing that's too late to change is the past...

xcept if u r a citizen of my mind,

where time travel is totally possible.

The future holds not just little or many,

but every possiblity there is to total reform of ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING.

That I hav nt just stated,

but am a living confirmation.

- Tonye.

What we call it. FOR GURUS ONLY

sez... let's take life as a computer program...

With a very large storage space(CHARACTER),

with different data types, the good part is,

There is no prior declaration of data variable types (DESTINY).

The Random Access Memory (BRAIN PROCESSING) locations are waiting to be filled up with different data types.

In its case, there is no running out of memory location,

neither is there a variable or constant to small to fit into any available location.

It accepts all data types.

The task of choosing what variable will b put into what location,

is what we all know as chiildhood and teenage life.

The task of getting to know what sub function (METHOD)

OR

Array is to be called at what time,

is what we refer to as Maturity.

On the other hand,

the task of figuring out the bugs stopping ur program from compiling,

even when it seems that all steps have been layed right,

is known as Adulthood...

Calling the assistance of another programmer, is what we call advice (FRIENDSHIP).

When your program runs properly for a certain period of time

and

it seems like everything was done right and it was time to relax,

and

then it crashes, dats a point wer u knw as "Premature death".

When it runs well for a very long period of time,

and

you are tired of maintaining the program, and

it is beginnin to seem outdated, that's when we use the phrase "passed away".

Finally, u r ur own software architect,

Ur God might be the genius behind the design of the programming language (Humanity),

but its up to you to

manipulate,

encapsulate,

polymorphise

or

inherit all that you can,

to make you an outstanding programmer.

- Tonye.

No such thing as the new you... :P

Theres never really an old you...

Opinions jst ruin everything.

Social value dwells at the heart of ur decisions

and pride remains at the throne of ur actions.

That statement... "the old me"

would be more suitable for those who wer princes and princesses,

then chose to be maids after a period of their lives..

- Tonye

I'm still gonna keep living..

My lifestyle

and my elements of knowledge,

seem to be leading to a career

that has not yet been created...

"Wat do i do for a living?"... :S

"Wat do i tell me mum?"... :S

- Tonye

Clairvoyance is directly proportional to readiness

U knw

every excellent presentation,

takes a preparation that's jst as xcellent.

You might be asking,

"wat about freestyles?"

I'll tell you wat,

whether or not,

it is in ur conscious awareness; the topic,

a juxtaposition,

rather a juxtaposed collection of previous attempts,

or even a random attempt at pursuing anyform of knowledge,

for the benefit of the wisdom,

gives you that clairvoyance,

which can be referred to as "the excellent preparation".

- Tonye