BONDS

You know that period when you owe someone some money, perhaps an acquaintance or a friend. You still partake in activities together, but something new happens; you all of a sudden tend to be conscious of this persons presence more often that usual :s
A period, were every single laughter spears through a certain force field between you and him/her, and brings about relief as to that tension that your mind creates between you two, which might only be an illusion from your ruminations. Questions slipping through your mind; what if i'm not able to pay him/her back when i promised? how would he react to that? Will it jeopardize our relationship? …

A moment comes when he/she with an unintended pawned question; "when did you say your mum was sending you the money again?", which consciously serves literarily as it is stated, and subconsciously serves as a reminder for your owing.

Prior to that moment, several minute conversations about the money owed - which warehouses casual mentions of your income and financial effectiveness - come around.

Now your promised payback date is fast approaching… your financial sources are not coming off very certain or profoundly reliable, but you still exert high expectations on them.

The closer your payback period comes, the higher the intensity of the how and if questions. You tell yourself about how the next time, you'll never have to borrow money again; you'll correct your bad habit of spending all your allowance and having to borrow so much money again...

[I'm giving you the liberty to take this story and chose what ever ending that suits you; do you payback on time, or do you not?
Have creative fun with it.]

Life and love,
Tonye

YES !!!

You know that answer your mind always gives when ever you want to take a step?
That answer that holds you back and most times even stops you from taking that step?
It operates at a speed of 1000 r/s (reasons per second),
This answer is popularly known as "NO"
I say when ever you get this answer,
you jump in and say yes.
We have instincts to protect us from survival threat,
so dont you worry about anything,
some weird things will take place inside of you,
they are called "emotions".
perhaps if you still find it difficult to filter through your ruminations,
you should try closing your minds eyes,
and just pushing through all of the mess and clog you have made,
until you feel a ray of light reflecting on your shut eyes,
that way you know you have found the platform you want to be on,
"the yes society" as i call it.

Nicki minaj once said "when you go hard, your nehs become yays",
Go hard,
and watch out for how something new and different takes over your life,
making every moment a sensational one and makes experiences even more breath-taking.
Someone once said "You have all you need within you".
This is true :)

If you still cant comprehend with my idea,
I suggest you try seeing the movie
'YES MAN'
Starring Jim Carrey. This movie could serve as a catalyst,
:)

Life and love,
Tonye :)

RUMINATIONs

i wana understand wat mkes u react the way u do, i wanna understand y colors represent things words cant. I wanna understand y u r nt an artist and i am

cuz i think otherwise. What if colours and sounds were owned by people. What is the proof that your eyes are right, are right, and the mirror is wrong, by portraying

left?

Science seems to have an explanation for everything, but I think otherwise, not because u and i knw so, but because the subtle sensation in evolution tells us so.

I want to understand the theory of a beginning and an end. Power gives so much pleasure. I know it does, I know why it does, what i wanna know is how.

knowledge seems to be the most powerful thing ever, and it being the most corrupt in our world today, leaves us with no form of purity or chance of objection,

since today, objection is based on proof, and proof on knowledge.

I wanna know the beginning of beginning.

I wanna dive down deeper and deeper, and stop at the bottom of the bottomless bottom. Whether or not i am sure i will make it back to the surface,
so i can knock on the door of horror and have coffee with it.

I wanna know y peace and chaos are referred to as "opposites", yet one little push turns one into another, r they really that far apart, or is one jst a reverse side
of the mask of the other.

y do heights signify achievements? y nt ...

We both share onething, they call it "emotions", I always wonder, what if we were both asked to give it a new name, Do u think we would agree upon the same name,
despite the fact that science claims "emotions are triggered by the same nerves in EVERY human"

Do plants have emotions ...i wanna dive deeper... "The plant dies", is that personification or is that tru?? the plant is dead.. Christianity claims that plants were
in existence before humans, but y do us "Humans" assume so much status and power all of a sudden, wen we were the last to arrive here?? :s

does remorse deserve pity? Wat is gud? does peaceful mean gud, or does it mean less chaos, because chaos cannot be avoided, meaning there is no such thing as gud??
its a fact we hav come to realize.

now... into inception, by Christopher Nolan

What if time counted back words?? Do we all view time the same way?

I wanna knw.

Wat is ...